26th of december

did you realize we just have a few day before the new year ?

so.. have you check all of your hope and wishes come true?  aha.. for me. its like still hang on the sky.  i just wanna make my mind not to things what im not done yet but try to settle all of the things before walk in a new year.


actually this coming 2013. i want to make sure i got my own car, by my own money and not from someone help even my family. then if i can do that, it show im mature and can stand on my feet. im no need my family money and can survive by myself. hihi i really dont like to burden anyone around me. the second thing is samsung note 2. and that one i make sure by april or before..its mine ! hihi :) the last thing as a sister and a daughter of my parents. im really want to take over them slowly. meaning i want to support all the family financial. even they have their money itself. but still its  a time to repay before too late. im not gonna wait. 
 sending them to makkah. that one is the thing i will plan. before sending them i should change myself first.  maybe with the saving in asb can send them :D 

to many thing i want to achieve for next year. gambate jieha ! 


even i am so black in my family but still my blood is red and i love them more than my self. 

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20.12.2012

 see the date. really nice right ?



morning.. what the best word to start a day ? 

update something in my blog mean i have kinda good mood to write. hehe. true, actually very bored here. 
yelorh got boyfie but he tired and need rest, so i just online. hee , this lately i chat with a few stranger, it just friend nothing more. 

hurm. guy. sometime i dont know what is really in his mind, seriously.. i need to more patient . yelor he always said that women aways think negative. hum i think that is normal bcause we are gurl and shud have curious feeling. dont know la. i just wish this is my last relationship. act i have give up after naza. but this time i think really the last one or else i just accept whoever person that come to see my family.

talk about naza.. this coming 29th of december he getting marry. so sad.. even he is only my ex, but i cant forgetting him. yeloh the one who really im in love with long time ago. he didnt invite me to his ceremony. i knw he dont want me to be sad. because he have said to me before. sokay la, i just hope u will be happy. hihi i ask the wedding picture from his friend. hihi snap for me. just wana see how the face when on the stage.

galaxy note II , WOAHH really make me fall in love. i make sure this coming april u are mine ! 
aha.. 

dont know what to write. em ohh for this time i like to share lyrics from marina and the diamonds. with the song primadona. 

Primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehavePrimadonna girl,Would you do anything for me?Buy a big diamond ring for me?Would you get down on your knees for me?Pop that pretty question right now, babyBeauty queen on a silver screenLiving life like I'm in a dreamI know I've got a big egoI really don't know why it's such a big deal, thoughAnd it's sad to the core, core, coreEveryday is a chore, chore, choreWhen you give, I want more more moreI wanna be adoredCoz I'm a primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehave
Primadonna girlFill the void up with CelluloidTake a picture, I'm with the boysGet what I want coz I asked for itNot because I'm really that deserving of itLiving life like I'm in a playIn the lime light I want to stayI know I've got a big egoI really don't know why it's such a big deal, thoughGoing up, going down, down, downAnything for the crown, crown, crownWith the lights that are down, down, downI spin aroundCoz I'm a primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehavePrimadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehave

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just a story

long time not log in to my page. hehe since i just have blackberry to online not my lappy.

so, i just bring my lappy to kl with the broadband. so yeah i can online :) 

so many thing happen in my life for a few months. so which one i want to start

10.11.12 the date i meet this guy named abdul rahim .

i still remember we have meet about 3 times before he ask my phone num. then after abouttwo or three days we declared in relationship. so fast ha? yes it is.but im really into him. so i dont know if he remember the date. bcause men always think the date kinda not important but not women. aha :D nevermind,

then what else to share.

oh  12.12.12 im back to my hometown :) after  2 or three month not coming back. 

so miss them hehe :) all gather there. just ude not there since she studying in jordon :)

then before i back, we promise to skype whole family with uda. the. last time mum see ude when we sent her flight. when the skype on and connecting between us. my mum just yell and call ude while the hane touch lappy screen and crying. like so sad. seriously sebak sangat. and ude pun calling my mum name. and evryone like sebak and all of us cry. until ude said mum dont cry., im sad here. then my mum cool 4 a while but still i can see her tear. my mum miss my sis same with us. may be becasue she is mum so more sad. 

after this i take the responsibility to send money to my sis. is like im here to help her. and im okay.bcause i know she need me now :) since im the one close with her in the family. i just pray she always in health and success :) ude we all here oray for you dear, do the best.

omgee ! aha its about time. i need to prepare and go to work ! hewhew :P enjoy or anything still need to work for money! :) 

love jieha ,

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here im stand on my feet

 it just my own story ..

where else to share, anything im going to write down here like my own diary, 
about 3 months im working in metrojaya kl, so far im good there and learn so many things there, about love, humans n others. what say you if u have a life that your own create inside the book and draw your own character. the objection is your choice.

choose or choice. for future better continue my degree but. emm am i really into it? QUESTIONMARK. maybe im going to ask my dad to delay my studies. hmm what my plan ?
just wanna settle up all then problem i make. and make the thing right even i dont know if i can do by my self. again. i need to stand by on my feet.


sacrifice. is it we call sacrifice when we do a mistake and need to sacrifice lot of thing from your own? ahaha., rasanya ayat aku macam india, tunggang terbalik. haha what i mean here we enjoy for a short moment and need to repay for a long term. is it worth it?


club. aha in plan to stop. but can i really trough it? maybe no more club but just attend for the event. yeah xaxao like crazy people. i know my decision to be in kl or to work in kl is wrong. all is because im running to the enjoy my own life and the end im sick to finish the rest of it. 

do not feel regret just maybe this is one part of my life and im going to trough it, i try to motivate myself and sometimes i feel im not my own self.

**if u are control my body  pls take me out and show the right way. i dont know where am in now. im not lost but i dont know how to return to the right way, i dont have any torch light to lighten my  dark road. just can see me walk in and go where the place my instinct want to be.

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too many thing to share

 what the thing i want to write ? ahaha no idea. actually i want to share all of my story since i cant update daily so i need tp make summary from what have i done.



let resume... okay my sister muna already been in jordon! yeahh sure lucky her and alhamdulillah she the one that can full all my family hope. i just can support her and happy for her. of course jealous when she succeed. but by the way rezeki masing-masing ;). oh this coming january jordon will have winter weather !! wahhhh exciting right . hee :P since the problem at mesir country all the source water has been  blocked. so my sister not taking her bath , haha if in malaysia u smell like trash. but at there its normal when you not taking bath because is very cold out there :)


so, cont. with my story this coming nov, on 3th nov will be our convocation day!!! :)) 
cant wait to see all my friends. but i heard not everyone attend the event since need to pay about rm300 for the convocation day. arghh and im pay by my own okay. so till now just wait what happen next :)

david guetta concert. i wish to go seriously i miss dancing i miss clubbing. wahhh im busy working so not have time to clubbing . this afternoon i wish i can go seriouslyyyyy ... pleaseee take me there*begging


i already move from intan house.  yah just transfer block only haha :D just happy ye lorh stay alone and got my privacy. 

what else to share ? heeww :) thats all lah . hee to be continue.....

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your love is my love !

if you love somebody, set them free. if they return, they were always yours.if they dont, they never were''


last thing,last call and last......

so finally naza text ,and told me that he just engaged with his women and going to marry her by end of this year! how terrible am i.... :((

his mum told him that someone had call him during his engagement day. and he just said okay. then he just find me. because he know that were me.

last year we have planned to get marry or  have a real relation for this year. he did it but not with me.BUT someone else :( poor me. i should stop hoping.jieha come on.

he find me on facebook, he ask to me to take care my self, stop clubbing, work well and etc.etc.

he know all about me :( he ask me that this, lagi make me saadd hummm :((

 he also said may be kita punya jodoh tak sampai ke penghujungnya, he ask me to wait someone better than him. but who else!! i just need uuuuu! why u cant notice that.humm

my fault, when ignored him. then this is my fault and i need to accept. whether i like it or not. because he not couple but fiancee of some one. hurghhhh hard to accept the reality but this is the real. mum. you daughter heart broken. every night im dream of him! please just go and go. my mind just cant stop[ to think about him.how sad my life ! t_t

i need to stand up and build a new spirit. for my work.my life family and future. 

maybe there is no one can replace you. but still life must go on. so here am i, lonely again ! 

just keep going,  

sometime let him go is much better because in return you will get somebody much much better


just hope there is someone can replace you. naza even you my past. but still you are the one my sweet memory in my life  NEVER FORGETTING YOU.



regret is not use just accept the reality.

nurul najihah muhammad, now automatically you are terminated from nazarizan saat life.

                                                                 **end of story**

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my sister wedding !

this is my sister anf her husband ! shait. so on august 25th she already taken by shait ! 

taraa :)

my dad and my lovely mum!! :D

so here the gurls ! red look hot! haha LOL

one big family! peaceeee :D

tomorrow she going fly to jordon to continue study! just miss her. the only sis that im close since kiddos, gpoing to miss u adek ! :) 4 years at jordon take a good care ^^

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something to share

wah banyak sangat cerita nak share, hihi 


firstly ,my sis wedding ! okay la overall sangat meriah dan seronok ! :) tapi aku tak de mood sangat nak cerita pasal kakak aku kahwin , since online dekat cc kan.. 

so aku lebih suka luah kan perasaan kat sini dari citer about reality kan... 

first , naza.. dia dah selamat ditunangkan pada 25 ogos hari tu.. hee kecewa sangat dia tunang tarikh yang sama dengan kakak aku kahwin. before tu, aku asik rindu je kat dia.. hari-hari sebut pasal dia.. 
aku ingat nak repeat la kan dengan dia, tapi hmm tak de rezeki la. percaya tak, aku ask my sis suruh call mak naza, coz aku xde no naza, since clash dgn dia, dia terus tukar no. so just save his mum number, n my sis talk to her mum, im happy bila tahu memang mak naza angkat and sedih bila tahu dia nak tunang, tapi tak pe lah aku kena terima je. jangan ganggu tunang orang :) biar kan dia bahagia. act. aku ade someone sekarang , yeah bukan someone sangat la. he not my choice but seriously he loves me more than i do. aku just baru nak accept dia. and baru nak start terima. haha tak tahu lah menjadi ke tak. just give a try.


aku seriously dah tak de hati nak couple. rasa jiwa kosong sangat,. macam jiwa mati. penah rasa macam tu tak? aku sedih je kann.. hehe maybe belum sampai lagi cinta yang aku tumggu ;)



hey. aku dah start kerja., yeah almost a month , now stay kat midvalley area. actly menumpang dekat rumah bai.. :) now tengah cari bilik sewa. on plan to move out. 
aku kerja kat metrojaya as assistance chief cashier. or supervisor . okay la. cume no life bila kerja kan. salary pun okay not too high but enough for my starting. aku tengah plan nak beli kereta yeah for my own asset , seriously aku dah penat nak naik bas. sekaranmg ni aku nak habis kan lesen kereta yang dah postpone almost a year! nak refresh then amik jpj test terus.sementara tu aku kumpul for downpayment kereta. hehe tu je kot. xtahu nk update ape lagi. hehe panjang sangat dah cerita. 


 still waiting for my true love *

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is it real ?

no pictures for this post.




hurm, how to start la. 


for now. aku susah nak log in my facebook page trough the lappy because i'd cut my internet line. now im in my friend house yeah.living here for three days. so here im update using his lappy. thanks 'k'


the story is i dont know why to many people i mean stranger added me on facebook, really weird. and four of them come from kelantan.what do you expect .


er okay that one may be normal. but they leave a message for me and ask me to be his girlfriend, whatthef*ck ! are u guys crazy or someone wanna test me huh ?


i check and going trough all d information in the page,i found their hometown most of them from bachok. then, bila aku try to remember and refresh who the person close with me come from bachok, i just can get one answer only 'naim'


i met him, hurm yeh for the third time he ask me to be his girlfriends, even im accept his proposal , but still i cant trust him,that easy. he broke my heart once. so that why, im just thinking is he serious for this time ? he treat me nice front of my friends.. and he did show that like us really in a relationship.but.im still at the same point,cant trust him. i dont want to be hurt again its painful like i cant imagine. 


about the facebook case, i just assume maybe nain game or he wana test me. because before this i have chat with his friend but actually thats him. 


 just for now i dont feel like wanna accept someone except he really prove me something. 

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too many stories

                                                     hello guys 

terlalu banyak cerita yang nak share ni, hehe :)

first of all aku dah habis study yeah. alhamdulillah :) oh! after finish all the presentation and what ever things that required. we have farewell dinner :) for the last moment., okay, i just have few pictures because im not have any camera to capture all of the moment so, here what i have :)

inside hall :) with my roomates 

my classmates just kak zura not in the pictures :)

my close friend abe mat follow by cerah (:

end story of farewell dinner :D

after finish my study im doing my part time at equatorial hotel bangi, as a banquet. hell yeah. enginnering to culinary haha :D actually, lot of experiences i learn there AND i can eat super delicious food from specialist cheff ! seriously all dishes nyumeeeyyhhhh (: 

this is my uniform (:

what else ? okay i think that enough for my post. actually there is  so many story to tell you ! hee :P

the truth, im really miss  blogging and visit others blogger but im too busy and i have cut my innternet lines.

huh --" 

so, tonight im going to beg my parent to allow me goin to KL tomorrow. i wana work there, im feel so bored stay at home. do nothing and alone. arghhhh thats why im decide to go kl. where all my life, friends are there (:

hey wish me luck ! heee :P

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sedetik lebih

End of gmi….

Finally, I have graduated from gmi J the happy thing after three years

But I kinda miss a lot of things happen here J

External. Going smoothly and success .err what to do after this ? Im not prepared to go back. Hell no.

I love ,my life here.even I miss my family. I decided to work as a part time at golf club maybe as a waitress yeeah for my own salaries, I dnt want to burden my family. I wana do all by myself and give my mum money. My own money.

Tonite .there will be farewell party, the theme is k-pop. Don’t know what to wear.

Just use my recycle cloth haha. Maybe there is no dress. And I just wear simple J

What else to story ? ohh ya,. Now im hijacked gmi wifi to online. Shit me L I don’t have any extra money to pay my monthly broadband. Grr. Yeah I just have 20bucks in my pocket, that’s why I need to work.

Thanks to gmi for the wifi even not strong enough but at least can cover my facebook and blog page.

My life now, doing good just, im taking my food once a day. Aha betul ke ayat aku ni? Grammar bersepah. Haha. Sorry but at least I try to write in English.  Seriously im saving now.

If follow my right count now it been 3months im not taking rice BUT. Im still fat. Huh.

Tataw nak update ape lg. this is for now~ adios

p/s I love my mum n my dad. And of course family and all my fellow friends J

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no title :)

sekarang ni kat bilik FYP, tengah edit slide, dengan si katak(bai) yang dok sibuk tengok conan x habis-habis, 

aku pening buat flow chart bile masuk dalam slide, grr terabur.

ingat nak online, tapi internet kene block, yang boleh bukak ni je la blog, so sementara nak release tension,

aku menyanyah lah kat sini kejap kan.

external selasa ni, aku makin takut rasanya macam cepat sangat and banyak lagi benda yang aku kene betul kan. hmm aku kene dengan panel 4 which is dokter fuad. okay verifier yang ni suka attack orang. and im afraid if he shoot me with the question that i cant answer, huarghhh. this is nervous!

semalam ada la belajar tuning siket kat graf tu, mintak boleh la jawab at least ada input dalam kepala aku kan ? electrical and banyak lagi aku kene study, aku tak nak di sebab kan aku x dapat jawab soalan semua orang kena, ye la markah of the group depends on how kite jawab soalan. and if soalan tu basic and aku tataw nak jawab, that one serioushit memang memalukan la kan.

external will be start on this 19 of june until 21th june. and my day will be on 19th . 

grrr  this is final presentation. grrr gila nervous seyh! doakan saya ya, kawan-kawan :))

p/s :semalam call ayah pulak, hee sy xpernah call ayah ! unless mintak duit. 

but lately ni i miss my fmly much much more <3 

**today my sis birthday, happy birthday my lovely sis muna bazilah binti muhammad :)

semoga panjang umur dan ditingkat kan iman,amiiin ya rabbal al-amin ^^

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GMi

entah lah berat rasa hati, setiap masa, hari berlalu dengan pantas. semua macam satu malam je. hihi kenangan, kawan-kawan, macm tiupan angin.3 tahun mcm seminggu, sekejap je rasa. sedih bile fikir nak tinggalkan bumi gmi ni, dengan kawan-kawan life kat sini, semua nye berbaur. kenapa lah cepat sangat masa berlalu.


hari berganti hari, selasa ni external. ukuran terakhir sebelum kebebasan diperolehi, mudah-mudahan segalanya berjalan lancar. amin ya rabbal al-amin. setiap senyuman, celoteh dan komen yang terluah tak sabar nak aku rakam kan. saat terakhir berada di gmi. 


oh kenangan. nana farhanah :) intan baizura :) nabihah lokman :) my roomate n terlalu banyak nama lagi.
sahabat jaga diri awak ya :) nanti kite jmpe insyallah :)


walaupun perjalanan aku jauh lagi. tapi. hati tu berat je hihi mungkin kehidupan isini terlalu banyak membawa erti kehidupan. ya. bukan kehidupan sahaja malah keperibadian :D


hihi , okay lah dah lambat. hanya sempat mengarut setakat ni sahaja, nak undur diri untuk bersiap ke KL :)
for my nightlife :) doakan saya selamat. amiinnn 




p/s mak saya rindu kat mak , lately ni asik terindu-rindu. tu yang selalu call *wink
** ampunkan dosa saya **

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pasal kau

memang aku terkenal dengan baran, sikap aku yang ganas tapi bukan nye aku buat benda x bersebab. 
aku xpenah buat benda bodoh setakat ni, tp kau melampau sangat, dulu kau janji semua manis la ape la, dulu memang bodoh aku percaya, tapi sekarang tak. aku tengok muka kau hati aku sakit.geram sume campur jadi satu, kau boleh slumber je datang kat aku buat macam tak de pape. then buat mcm dulu. sume benda sweet kau buat kat aku sekarang ibarat kudis je. sebab aku xboleh percaya apatah lagi tengok kau depan mate aku macam tu, heh. permainan kau dalam tangan aku je. cume aku biarkan je, nak tengok sejauh mana.

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benci

memang aku menyampah tengok muke kau,
dulu aku suka, sekarang aku sakit hati je.
dgr nme kau je, buat aku ilang mood.
ni kan tengok muke kau. 


kalau aku dah xsuka smpai bile-bile x suka tu ade.

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sorry

sorry friends ,
because of me u in trouble,
u in sad ,
i hate to see your smile face turn to tears.


i broke my promises and i realise.
just. 
when something happen suddenly and your decision just nothing.
and that turn me to other sides


i want to be me,
i want to avoid something that i really block long time ago,
but the environment make me change the decision.
n now. im far away. far from the straight line.


can i really control this ? no answer.
still i have no idea until when im being this way.
or static at this critical point. 


ya allah, pls show the way.
i need your 'nur' to change us.
amiin . :)

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somebody that i used to know

[Gotye:]

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

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set fire to the rain by Adele

I let it fall, my heartAnd as it fell, you rose to claim itIt was dark and I was over until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they're strong But my knees were far too weakTo stand in your armsWithout falling to your feet 
But there's side to you that i never knew, never knewAll the things you'd say, they were never true, never trueAnd the games you play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rainWatched it pour as i touched your faceLet it burn while I cry'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name 
when laying with youI could stay there, close my eyesFeel you here, foreverYou and me together, nothing is better
'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knewAll the things you'd say, they were never true, never trueAnd the games you'd play, you would always win, always win
But I set fire to the rainWatched it pour as I touched your faceLet it burn while I cried'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rainAnd I threw us into the flamesWhere I felt somethin' die, 'cause I knew thatThat was the last time, the last time
Sometimes i wake up by the doorNow that you've gone, must be waiting for youEven now when it's already overI can't help myself from looking for you
I set fire to the rainWatched it pour as I touched your faceLet it burn while I cried'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rainAnd I threw us into the flamesWhere I felt somethin' die'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh
Oh, noLet it burn, ohLet it burnLet it burn

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