termination ?

i dont know how to start but its like this starting  january 2013 is worst ever i had face. urghhh


termination . its like killing you. yeah. im now waiting for the confirmation then i will go for the permanent,
the things i never thought happen when im really ready in commitment ., its like cutting your own neck.
all is from me because im the one who really critical in attendance. its about discipline.  no matter how good your performance, or how you handle your work but once you had a problem with your timing. its going to be a big issues. hell yeah. im facing it right now., 

i just late woke up. and when im realise i really late and cant change anything, unless im really make up my mind. yeah. i dont want to quit this job because i really need it and enjoying all the envy there even it just in retail company.

the things become worst when. you already apply for the car loan, asb , and etc. its like i have a big commitment to settle up and suddenly you got the termination letter ! what the heck. arghhhh quite hard to face it because im doing all by my self. i never thought this thing become serious. all is because your ATTENDANCE.  huwaaa :( im really sad when think about my future. i dont want to loose with my family, i want to prove them that i can succeed without them.  

i met my manager, then discuss about this. because its something important, about my future or my periuk nasi. hurm...after discussed with my boss he suggest me to  write appeal letter for the confirmation, and he try to fight my case. headache. migrain, cant sleep what else. all the feeling become one. i just blank because it not like what u plan. 
i apply car, loan and etc because i know with my monthly salary i can pay them all. but if im been terminate how to pay lol. i become muflis in a junior age.


right now all of them try to help me. im just appreciate . seriously. im taking this thing serious. i dont want to be late and i dont want they terminate me because of attendance., shame me ==''

right now what im doing is waiting for the reply and keep doa that my appeal will be accepted. ya allah , i hope you really give this last chance to me and im not going to waste it. learn from lesson. really hope. and hope the answer is positive. 


friends wish me luck i just hope this appeal accepted. really hope. amiinnnn 

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26th of december

did you realize we just have a few day before the new year ?

so.. have you check all of your hope and wishes come true?  aha.. for me. its like still hang on the sky.  i just wanna make my mind not to things what im not done yet but try to settle all of the things before walk in a new year.


actually this coming 2013. i want to make sure i got my own car, by my own money and not from someone help even my family. then if i can do that, it show im mature and can stand on my feet. im no need my family money and can survive by myself. hihi i really dont like to burden anyone around me. the second thing is samsung note 2. and that one i make sure by april or before..its mine ! hihi :) the last thing as a sister and a daughter of my parents. im really want to take over them slowly. meaning i want to support all the family financial. even they have their money itself. but still its  a time to repay before too late. im not gonna wait. 
 sending them to makkah. that one is the thing i will plan. before sending them i should change myself first.  maybe with the saving in asb can send them :D 

to many thing i want to achieve for next year. gambate jieha ! 


even i am so black in my family but still my blood is red and i love them more than my self. 

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20.12.2012

 see the date. really nice right ?



morning.. what the best word to start a day ? 

update something in my blog mean i have kinda good mood to write. hehe. true, actually very bored here. 
yelorh got boyfie but he tired and need rest, so i just online. hee , this lately i chat with a few stranger, it just friend nothing more. 

hurm. guy. sometime i dont know what is really in his mind, seriously.. i need to more patient . yelor he always said that women aways think negative. hum i think that is normal bcause we are gurl and shud have curious feeling. dont know la. i just wish this is my last relationship. act i have give up after naza. but this time i think really the last one or else i just accept whoever person that come to see my family.

talk about naza.. this coming 29th of december he getting marry. so sad.. even he is only my ex, but i cant forgetting him. yeloh the one who really im in love with long time ago. he didnt invite me to his ceremony. i knw he dont want me to be sad. because he have said to me before. sokay la, i just hope u will be happy. hihi i ask the wedding picture from his friend. hihi snap for me. just wana see how the face when on the stage.

galaxy note II , WOAHH really make me fall in love. i make sure this coming april u are mine ! 
aha.. 

dont know what to write. em ohh for this time i like to share lyrics from marina and the diamonds. with the song primadona. 

Primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehavePrimadonna girl,Would you do anything for me?Buy a big diamond ring for me?Would you get down on your knees for me?Pop that pretty question right now, babyBeauty queen on a silver screenLiving life like I'm in a dreamI know I've got a big egoI really don't know why it's such a big deal, thoughAnd it's sad to the core, core, coreEveryday is a chore, chore, choreWhen you give, I want more more moreI wanna be adoredCoz I'm a primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehave
Primadonna girlFill the void up with CelluloidTake a picture, I'm with the boysGet what I want coz I asked for itNot because I'm really that deserving of itLiving life like I'm in a playIn the lime light I want to stayI know I've got a big egoI really don't know why it's such a big deal, thoughGoing up, going down, down, downAnything for the crown, crown, crownWith the lights that are down, down, downI spin aroundCoz I'm a primadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehavePrimadonna girl, yeahAll I ever wanted was the worldI can't help that I need it allThe primadonna life, the rise and fallYou say that I'm kinda difficultBut it's always someone else's faultGot you wrapped around my finger, babeYou can count on me to misbehave

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